Kiss Me Goodbye [A Sawada Tsunayoshi Oneshot]

You say my love is all you need

To see you through

But I know these words are not quite true

“Please.”

His sienna eyes begged for you to stay, they begged for you to forgive him. You knew he had something going on behind your back, it wasn’t a girl but you knew it was something dangerous if his rugged form didn’t tell you enough.

“I cannot live without you, without your love, please [Name]…”

With a small sigh, you smiled softly and accepted him into your arms once more. You knew he wouldn’t lie to you and he did such things to keep you safe.

But what he had said, you could tell in your heart that…

He could live without you but he just doesn’t know it yet.

Here is the path you're looking for

An open door

Leading to worlds you long to explore

Go--if you must move on alone

I'm gonna make it on my own

“Go, they need you.”

You were never one for holding him back. You ushering him towards the door with a cheery grin. Tsuna looked at you worriedly, his eyes searching your form for any signs of hurt or doubt. With a sigh you assured him once more that you’ll be okay on your own and you had Natsu.

 With a passionate kiss he left you on the door step, promising to return as soon as possible.

Kiss me goodbye, love's memory

Follow your heart and find your destiny

Don't shed a tear for love's mortality

For you put the dream in my reality

“[Name]…”

His voice cracked as he stared at the note on the floor.

You’d left to protect him.

As time goes by, I know you'll see this as me

I loved you enough to let you go free

Go--I will give you wings to fly

Cast all your fears into the sky

It’s been a year since you’ve left. He was still searching.

Today was the anniversary of your disappearance.

The orange coloured box sat on his table, the familiar neat handwriting on the card made his heart swell with hope. Against Gokurdera’s warning, the brown haired boy had opened the box. It contained a stainless steel charm on a necklace, in a form of a pair of elegant wings.

“Fly high into the skies, my love.”

Kiss me goodbye, love's mystery

All of my life I'll hold you close to me

Don't shed a tear for love's mortality

For you put the dream in my reality

Twenty One.

He wished for you to be there with him when he had blown out the candles on his birthday cake.

He had met you when he was 16. Kyoko was long gone by then, he only saw her as a friend and you came into the picture. You were always there, supporting him even when he was down, reminding him that he could be better than what he was.

He owed you a lot.

“Tsuna, there’s something that came in the mail for you,” Nana told the male, passing the small package to him. Tsuna took it with a smile, thanking his mom before opening the package.

To Tsuna and the Family,

The first CD, labled: Family, please watch it with everyone. As for the second one, it’s a present for Tsuna. Happy Birthday!!

–[Name]

“Guys!! We’ve got something from [Name]!!”

The announcement made everyone rush towards the brown haired Vongola, causing a small outbreak of excitement. Everyone urged the boy to insert the CD into the player as they sat in the family room. Turing the TV on, everyone stared at the screen as you stared back.

“Is it recording?”

You had asked with a smile, and then looked right at the camera.

They could see how much you’ve changed, you were looking pale and fragile but your cheery smile still stayed the same.

“It’s been two years!! I hope you’re all doing well!! As you can see I am a little bit sick at the moment haha. I really do miss you guys.”

Everyone had looked at Tsuna silently as he stared at the television; it was like a dream to be able to see you.

“Truth is, I don’t really have much time and I wanted to let everyone know that I really love you all and thank you… for all the wonderful memories and adventures.”

At this point your eyes had begun to water, you smile broke a little.

The tension in the room rose as you continued.

“I’ve been diagnose with a rare disease since I was a child and the doctors had said I would only live up to 10 years at most but I showed them right? Haha”

The pain that you’ve been hiding and keeping to yourself…

“This year will be my last.”

You wiped the stray tear that fell with a grin.

“And don’t you all start babbling and crying you hear? I expect smiles!! Yes even from you Gokudera!!”

Kiss me goodbye, love's memory

You put the dream in my reality

After the video, Haru and Kyoko had decided to excuse themselves first and after that almost everyone had gone home, the shock still hasn’t set in yet but when it did… the anger and pain started.

Tsuna sat up in his room, door locked and laptop on. Holding in his tears he inserted the 2^nd CD that came with the package.

“Hey there Tsu-chan, I know you must be pretty shocked and angry. I don’t blame you since I took the coward’s way out. I didn’t want anyone to worry or baby me. You were all busy after all… and really I didn’t want you to ever see me frail and helpless.”

You joked with a grin. He could tell you had recorded this earlier, before the disease had gotten to you.

“I want you to remember me as… the healthy and cheerful idiot that forgives you for everything, even coming to dates a day late.”

He remembered, that day they had a fight with a rival family and had missed a date with you. He smiled.

“You are the most wonderful boyfriend I’ve ever had. You’re smart, handsome and full of awesome! Don’t you ever forget that!!”

He chuckled bitterly and nodded.

“Remember those wings that I gave you? They belonged to my mother, she had given them to me for protection and in hopes that I would be able to live life fearlessly. Now I pass those hopes on to you. ”

His hand clenched on to the charm around his neck, the cold steel in his clammy palms.

“So for your 21^st birthday, I wanted to present you with a song, a performance of sorts!!”

Your soothing voice had sung the lullaby.

“You put the dream… in my reality…”

As the last verse was sung, he noticed your teary eyes.

“I love you, Sawada Tsunayoshi.”

It ended.

The tears began falling from his hazel coloured orbs and he shouted in frustration, his fist making harsh contact with the table he leaned on. That night he broke down for the first time in 2 years.

A month later the letters were received.

The location of your grave was listed.


A/N: This isn't one of the best fics but recently I had the urge to replay FF12 (the gameplay sucks but I play if for Fran and Balthier lol). Kiss Me Goodbye by Angela Aki has always been my favourite of all the Final Fantasy sound tracks. It was the song that made the most impression on me and really this fanfiction does not do justice to it.

I thought about a sad love story for this song and somehow it reminded me of Tsuna. I haven't really written a Tsuna fanfiction before (I'm more used to writing brash and harsh characters like Gokudera or Hibari) so I'm sorry if he seems OOC. Critiques are accepted with open arms :D

Naughty Or Nice [Enma X OC] [Part 1]

(A/N: Part 2 shall be more detailed... hahaha >///<)

“Of all the days to fall sick Enma…,” the girl sighed, removing the warm towel on his forehead “Sorry,” the redhead murmured into his covers timidly, his cheeks were tinted red from the fever that was plaguing him at the moment. “Tell that to Adelheid, she’s the one having to explain to everyone at the Christmas party why you’re not able to attend, jeez, you’re already 20!! Don’t you know how to take care of yourself?” she asked poking his ribs through the thick layer of blankets, tickling him a little.

He mentally grinned, watching as she scolded him, she really did look cute when she was angry. “What with that silly smile? Are you even listening to me?” she asked, frowning at him, her brows furrowed in irritation, pink lips curved into a scowl “Yes I am,” he replied lightly, watching as she tuck her ebony locks behind her ears.

“And you’re supposed to be the older one,” she pointed out.

He nodded with a slight ‘mm’ sound from his throat acknowledging the fact, that he indeed was two years older than her yet acted like a child. Though it was the only way he could get her attention, if he hadn’t fallen sick, he wouldn’t have been able to spend time with her alone. Being a mafia boss and going to university takes a toll on you after all and she was still in college herself. The two were always so busy that they didn’t have much time to spend with each other.

It was a silly crush at first, back when he was still in junior high, he was a senior and she was a freshman. She was part of the school’s Health Committee and First Aid Team and he was Loser Enma after all, he was bound to get into an accident here or there so he was frequently at the infirmary where she volunteered at during the school breaks and after hours.

Kawamura Chou was the first girl he’s befriended on his own without any help from his family or friends. She was also his first crush, not his first girlfriend but definitely his first love and if he could have it his way, she would be his last.

“Sleep,” she commanded, sitting beside his bed with a book in her lap, her onyx eyes scanning the pages quickly. “I can’t, I’ve been sleeping the whole day,” he whined, throwing the covers off his pyjamas clad body.

“And it’s really stuffy with the covers.”

“Is it?”

She asked with a smile. He nodded.

“Good.”

“Chou is so mean…,” he sulked turning his back to her “If you’ve got any other better ideas to get yourself sweaty without getting out of bed then please suggest them,” she smirked “Oh? I have a really good idea but I’m not sure if you’ll agree to it,” he played along with a smirk of his own “Hmm it depends doesn’t it? If you’ve been naughty or nice?” she teased, placing her book down “I’ve been a very nice boy this year,” he chuckled, manoeuvring himself to the side to make more space on the single bed.

“If I catch your cold, you’re going to have to nurse me back to health,” she smiled as he placed a kiss on her forehead “I don’t mind, that way I’d get to spend more time with you,” he hummed, pulling her closer. “You’ll have a lot more responsibilities soon, once you graduate,” she stated with a warm smile, cuddling into his toned chest “That’s why you should spend more time with me instead of studying,” he playfully reprimanded her, giving her a small pout.

She grinned and kissed him, her lips covering his own in a passionate hold.

“Have I told you how beautiful you are?” the redhead asked his girlfriend, a little breathless from their long session of tongue wars. He rolled over to top her “Why good sir, that line is over used don’t you think?” she asked with a cheeky smile, lying beneath him reminded her of how tall he’s grown over the years. He wasn’t Loser Enma anymore. He’s grown stronger not only physically but mentally as well, not to mention he’s handsome to boot!

“You’re the most beautiful woman in the world,” he murmured with warm lips on her skin.

“I love you.”

“I’m going to cry if you keep being so sweet, love,” she whispered softly, her irises filled with warmth and affection that words wouldn’t be able to describe, “I love you too.”

She shivered as his warm hands came into contact with her skin beneath her shirt, he chuckled lightly at the blush that decorated her cheeks when he cupped her mounds of flesh, lightly squeezing them through the lacy material.  The small gasp left her lips while his knee placed between her legs had gently pressed against her warmth, sending a small wave of pleasure through her body. “You’re so sensitive,” he whispered in delight, his warm breath grazing her ear, his tongue darting out to lave the shell of her ear tenderly. She removed her shirt when he had tugged persistently on it, insisting that she throw it off along with the lingerie she donned, after all, he found her the most attractive naked, bare in her own skin. Enma quickly removed his shirt; the heat was beginning to become unbearable by each second. He let her hands roam his form, caressing his toned chest down to his stomach before reaching the hem of his pants. It was her turn to make him blush, her hand slipping past the elastic waistband, gently stroking his hard shaft.

The sheen of sweat covered their bare bodies, glistening under the fluorescent light that lit the room. The soft mewls and erotic moans that left her plum lips were like a drug, he was addicted to it, her husky voice calling out his name repeatedly like a mantra. Licking down the valley of her breast, his slim digits had slowly made their way down to her wet core, gently caressing the sex in a teasing manner, fuelling her desire for him even more than before.

“Enma,” she begged, her core ached with want, her hips arching up pushing herself against his hand.

He covered her lips with his own in a demanding kiss. Pushing two of his fingers into the slick opening, she nearly screamed from the pleasure that surged through her body, her toes curled in bliss when he began pumping his fingers into her tight sheath. She moaned gratefully into the kiss, her hands tangling in his crimson locks. “Still so tight,” he groaned, breaking the kiss to add another digit into her opening. “Hnn, no more Enma, I’ll come,” she protested whilst he rubbed the small erected love button with his thumb, his fingers skilfully kneading the soft insides of her core. “Ahn Enma, please!!” she pled but to no avail, he continued his expert ministrations, building up the warm tension in her stomach and sending her into euphoria. She screamed his name as she climaxed, her eyes rolling to the back off the head at the pure ecstasy that ran through her body. Her hands had gripped on to his shoulders, her nails biting into his pale skin, leaving the crescent shaped marks behind.

She panted softly, her cheeks flushed from the activity they’ve been indulging themselves in. The corners of his lips curved into a seductive smirk, removing his fingers from her sex, he brought them up to his lips, allowing the pink muscle in his mouth to lap up the salty-sweet liquid at a leisurely pace. The shade of red on her cheeks turned darker as she watched him, his lustful gaze pulling her deep into his carnal desires.

It’s going to be a long night.